Feel the pain.

It's weekend again, finally! Haha. Since the first day in clinical school, weekend is the most fancy thing everyone will be waiting for, aiyooo. So, what is up so far? Well, basically mood and motivation going up and down, alternating, there are days I feel like not going to the hospital, there are also good days I feel so excited to learn medical cases (which, jarang sebenarnya that day really came haha). 

So here one cerita yang setakat ni stuck in my mind juga lah sebab that was one of my struggle kot so far. Hmm, despite the language barrier everyone's been stressing about, I think I have one major problem which is 'kurang perasaan kebersamaan' (what is that even?). Jap, tak ter-come out dengan apa apa perkataan pula sekarang ni -.- but I'll try to get the situation clear now. 

Haritu, I was taking history of a patient together with Daniel and Naimi. We went to the patient with stroke case, so we had to take history from his wife. They are old couple, aged around 70. There was a long story with the aunty, and she mentioned they had no children but I couldn't really grasp what she really meant, either diorang memang decided to not have kids atau diorang ada problem with anything related (my bad sebenarnya sebab tak tanya details). For that part, macam kesian juga lah since diorang pun aging and got no kids to temankan or jaga makan minum diorang but luckily they are highly educated and diorang pun orang kaya, so they depend on maids juga. Then, the history taking came to its end and kitorang greet that aunty with thanks and segala ucapan selamat, tiba tiba aunty tu menangis and we were stunned kejap lah awkward tak tahu nak buat apa. She was crying asking us to pray for her husband, dia cakap sebab kitorang kan macam musafir so doa kitorang diperkenankan and she really wanted her husband to get back to normal life sihat macam biasa. Aaaaa, serious sedih pilu je rasa. But you know what, Maisarah ni boleh lagi terpaku depan aunty tu tak tahu nak buat apa while the aunty tengah sebak menangis mengalir air mata bagai. Sampai Naimi yang kena cakap, 'Mai, tepuk tepuk lah makcik tu.' But still, I tak reti nak pujuk orang nangis huwaaaaa, teruknya rasa, I only patted her lap gitu je, time tu rasa teruk sangat tak mampu nak cakap any words pun hmmmmmmmm harapkan Naimi and Daniel je yang cakap comforting words sikit. Sedih dengan cerita aunty tu sedih juga dengan diri sendiri :( 

Konklusinya, cuba bagitahu Maisarah ni apa nak buat sebenarnya kalau patient or their relatives menangis time tengah ambik history :/ aduhai, banyak lagi lacking communication skill ni, kata nak jadi doctor hmm hmm ke sebab diorang Arabs kot so rasa 'kebersamaan' tu kurang maybe kalau patients Malaysians juga lebih sikit rasa tu, entahlah semoga Maisarah belajar lah ye untuk simpathy and empathy (belajar theory je memang tak cukup pasal perasaan ni).

But above all, clinical life is getting exciting by day alhamdulillah banyak belajar :) Till next time, and all the best semua orang for everything you've been struggling on!